by Lissa Schneckenburger
On that afternoon the sun was in the sky
It made little sparkling diamonds in the snow
I had a heavy fist of fear that gripped my stomach
And it wouldn’t let me go
I could see the lady’s breath in little clouds in the air
She lead me up the walk and rang the bell
That was the day the fist of fear became an animal
And broke out of it’s shell
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I know, you can not fool me
Nobody wants me
And I don’t want you anyhow
I know, you’ll never see me
Nobody sees me
Look away.
I am a stranger in a house that’s full of strangers
I am afraid to turn the lights off in the night
And they say “child don’t you worry” but if you had known what I have known Then you would worry
Nothing they give me ever tastes right
And their house just doesn’t smell like home to me
And I know that where I came from didn’t feel good but then nothing feels good Maybe it is me
I am an animal, my name is fear
My teeth are anger, my eyes severe
I am power, I will destroy
So do not look at me like I am just a little boy
And the fire that burns in me will devour me until I fade away
So look away
There was a time in summer I went fishing at the creek
My grandma showed me how to cast a line
We sat together on the bank and let our bare feet dangle
Everything was fine
And now they want to take me out to see the game
They buy me little presents all the time
They say next summer we’ll go fishing, we’ll have fun
But all I want to do is cry